I've begun to question my faith, but not in God — but in our ability to deny the existence of one. See— Man spent millenniums living under the tyrannical oppression of nature, adhering to its whims, and forming the beliefs needed to guarantee his survival. So it's only fitting that where men have had the most influence, that the beliefs held in these areas hold similar patterns. Take for example, how in predominantly Islamic countries, where women have been systematically and barbarically mistreated and undervalued, there tends to be a widespread belief in martyrdom, particularly that for their sacrifices, martyrs are to be rewarded by being forgiven of their sins, and guaranteed a placement for their lineages in paradise. And of course, this belief mirrors one held by Christians; that Jesus died for our sins so that we may be allowed to someday join in him in heaven. In fact, wherever and whenever male influence has dominated culturally, the belief in sacrifice persists in that culture's religion. The reason being, is that our ideologies are the ideas of our ancestors: they are the beliefs that we inherited from our forefathers — whether it be the ideas they passed on, or from the genes given to us that gives rise to those ideas — they are the byproducts of dead knowledge. With the primary testimony to this observation being man's predisposition to believe in sacrifice, which likely originated from the behavioural patterns of our hunter-gatherer ancestors. Primitive as they were, they lacked the technology to allow those who were unfit to survive in harsh conditions to live on, which meant that nature was allowed to select for only those with the ability to persevere through its pressures to pass on their genes, which also means that those with a predisposition to want to overcome adversities inevitably had longer living lineages than those who didn't. And given that historically, men have been without the capacity to bear children, they've been free to be subjected to the whims of nature more so than women. And thus, because the will, and want to overcome adversity was more so selected for in men, the beliefs that men are predisposed to select and worship inevitably follows a similar pattern: 'sacrifice everything now to reap the unimaginable in the future' — the epitome of a high-risk high-reward philosophy.